i sent her this email the day i decided to shield myself from her to her email but she never got it

im finally done with school for now. i graduated from RN school this past friday. it feels awesome to know that the stress of nursing school is no longer there. hopefully i can get hired as an RN asap. i really need to post more often in my lj.

today is my birthday and i find myself somewhat indifferent. life has been so different lately and its just going to get more and more difficult but im hopeful that ill do well. 1 more year of school and ill be an RN. i just wished time moved faster.

fuck, my shift ends in 30mins. i need to go home and beat off like no tomorrow. damn u lj.

1. Can you cook? i can but i dont usually do. although lately ive cooking alot more and enjoy it very much so
2. What was your dream growing up? being a cop or a assassassin

3. What talent do you wish you had? i wish i could read people better

4. Favorite place? san quintin baja california

5. Favorite vegetable? lettuce, i love lettuce!!

6. What was the last book you read? maternity and child nursing( for RN school)

7. What zodiac sign are you ? leo rawr!!

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? 2 tattoos, on my right arm a red dragon tribal piece, and on my left arm a koi fish and lots of water. also i have my tongue piercing

9. Worst Habit? i bite my nails, bad. i know i know but i just cant stop!! argh!!

10. Do we know each other outside of live journal? no unfortunetinly(?)



11. What is your favorite sport? martial arts specifically kenpo and capoeira

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude? optimistc mostly

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? flirt with you,hopefully more

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? rejection is a bitch

15. Tell me one weird fact about you: umm, i have 2 black belts and im currently working on my 3rd

16. Do you have any pets? nope not any more

17. Do you know how to do the macerana? do i ever! c'mon Im mexican! lol

18. What time is it where you are now? 1pm

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? fuck clowns! carnies are soo much better

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? lets see, id be thinner and more muscular. thats about it

21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? crime partner all teh way!

22. What color eyes do you have? brown

23. Ever been arrested? nope but ive been strip searched in tijuana a few years back.

24. Bottle or Draft? draft.

25. If you won $10,000 dollars/pounds today, what would you do with it? pay off my debt and go on a trip to europe

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? fruity flavors

27. What's your favorite thing about your personality? im pretty easy going and a very good listener

28. Do you believe in ghosts? not really

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? work out

30. Do you swear a lot? at times

31. Biggest pet peeve? people who cut others off when talkin

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself? contradiction (a huge one)

33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? maybe

What is the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning?
Kick the dog off the bed, turn off my alarm and head to the pottie

What was the first pop concert you went to?
Santana/mana in 97

What was the worst thing that you did as a child?
fight with my twin bro alot. fucker stabbed me twice

What is your favourite song?
i wont share you by morrissey

What is your most treasured material possession?
my 1970 mustang

What is the best advice that you've ever received?
fuck it!

What do you think of Bob Dylan?
know of him, havent heard any of his music though

When did you last cry, and why?
when my mother had a heart attack last week

What characteristics do you think you've inherited from your parents?
my father's strength, honesty, sense of obligation

Are you afraid of failure?
Yes

What are you like when you're drunk?
Devilishly sexy, nah, playful and loveable, funny and outgoing,

Which actor/actress would you have play yourself in a film?
lol no one nothing worth playing me but if i had to choose id say, jean reno

Pick five words that describe yourself....
simple, honest, strong, reliable, worthy

Is there one piece of criticism that sticks in your mind?
I don't dwell on the criticism

Do you believe in God?
yes, not religious per sey but i do believe in him

What is your most unpleasant characteristic?
stubborn

What is your greatest fear?
failure and dissapointing my family

What ambitions do you still have to fulfil?
my career, my sport, my own bussiness, and a family of my own

What do you never leave home without?
cell phone, wallet, keys, and inhaler(im asthmatic) (asthma is sexi) for reals! lol

Who is your best male friend and your best female friend?
ruben is my best friend, roxanne is the female counterpart

Who would you most like to meet?
morrissey, jeff speakman, and robert smith

What music would you like to have played at your funeral?
please please let me get what i want - the smiths

When you look in the mirror, do you like what you see
my future and all that i can accomplish

What is your favourite film.
sin city

If you had a million pounds (£1,000,000), what would you do with it?
dollar? id buy a huge house in riverside county or san diego county and house for my family, pay off my loans and finish school.

What first attracts you to a person of the opposite sex?
facial beauty

What was your favourite subject at school?
History

If you could spend the night with anyone in the world, who would you choose and why?
scarlet johanssan, oh yea shes dead sexi

What is the most embarassing thing you've ever done?
i piss the front of my pants at a party, went off to the side to take a leak and forgot to open my fly, boy was it hard to walk out that party.

Do you have anything to declare?
Only my genius and a large schlong

so here i am at work on my last day at the TPN unit at LLUMC. its been pretty cool here. i spend all day on the comp fucking around not doing shit. the span of my work consist of being on lj, making loads of excels worksheets and walking around the hospital flirting with chicks. laid back and hella easy. i havent done any patient care in more than a month and its been awesome but i want to go back to my home unit. i work more do more, but i make more and work less days so thats a plus. i need to get in gear with working, school, and working out. this weekend should be pretty cool. im going over to skeets house for a new years party and that should be hella fun. my freaking tooth is killing me. i have this huge headache that doesnt go away and the only thing that subsides the pain slightly is vicodin.

besides that i got an A in my nursing 1 class. im so happy about that. itll raise up my gpa which is what i need to do. i enrolled into my nursing 2 class but its tuesday thru thursday all day so that kinda sucked but oh well, and none of my boys from nursing 1 is in my class so that sucks. im gonna miss them guys. there hella fun to kick it with. ruben might come down this weekend but i dont know, he flakes out alot so well see. i wanna get mean ass drunk and hopefully get laid for new years. cross your fingers :D

this weekend has been pretty awsome. my uncle chico and his family came from baja and my tio mario and his family is here from tecate. grandma made it too and so did noe and his new gf. today is going to be an awsome day. im glad the family came from so far away to stay the weekend with us up here in perris.

i didnt have alot of money this year. to be exactly im flat broke and i still have my car payment to make but its ok. im just glad that were all here. i got hella drunk last night with my dad, uncle mario, and my uncle chico. it was awsome i think its the first time i dranked with them at a table seen as an adult and it was great. we were debating about differences in tequila. my uncle chico had brought some home made tequila from down south mexico and fuck was that shit rough. it was very strong and burned like a mutha fucker. it was stronger than cuervo or jimador and even patron. shit it was weird. when u pour it u can tell its not filter all that great but man does it fuck u up. aaron took off to donnies and got high out there and lou went to sleep over there so that he could get up early to go to work today. today i think my other cousins are coming over too from san diego and LA so its gonna be a full house till monday.

after all this drinking and eating i gotta drop weight like a mad man. i wanna start gettin prepared and in shape for the tournament in maui next june. itll be great but i gotta start working hard and no more drinkin for a while. well im off.

"Everybody talks about the weather, but nobody does anything about it."

"Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow."

Let us be thankful for the fools. But for them the rest of us could not succeed.

A lie can travel half-way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes

I am an old man and have known a great many troubles but most of them never happened.

And what can be more obscene than our own imaginations?

Indecency, vulgarity, obscenity- these are strictly confined to man; he invented them. Among the higher animals there is no trace of them.
- The Lowest Animal essay

The thug is aware that loudness convinces sixty persons where reasoning convinces but one.
- "Is Shakespeare Dead?" essay

That is the way we are made: we don't reason, where we feel; we just feel.
- A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court

It is better to give than receive- especially advice.
- Wit and Wisdom of Mark Twain, Alex Ayres

It's noble to be good. It's nobler to teach others to be good, and less trouble.
- Wit and Wisdom of Mark Twain, Alex Ayres

There are three things which I consider excellent advice. First, don't smoke to access. Second, don't drink to excess. Third, don't marry to excess.
- last public address, St. Timothy's School for Girls, Catonsville, MY 6/9/1909

Mark Twain's answer to a would-be writer: "Young Author"- Yes, Agassiz does recommend authors to eat fish, because the phosphorus in it makes brain. So far you are correct. But I cannot help you to a decision about the amount you need to eat- at least not with certainty. If the specimen composition you send is about your fair usual averge, I suggest that perhaps a couple of whales would be all you would want for the present. Not the largest kind, but simply good middling-sized whales.
- "Answers to Correspondents", Sketches New and Old

You ought never to "sass" old people- unless they "sass" you first.
- Advice for Good Little Girls

It is wrong to put a sheepskin under your shirt when you know that you are going to get a licking. It is better to retire swiftly to a secret place and weep over your bad conduct until the storm blows over.
- Advice for Good Little Boys

You should never do anything wicked and lay it on your brother, when it is just as convenient to lay it on some other boy.
- Advice for Good Little Boys

Be respectful to your superiors, if you have any.
- Advice to Young People speech, 4/15/1882

It is better to read the weather forecast before we pray for rain.
- Notebook; More Maxims of Mark, Johnson, 1927

Man is a Religious Animal. He is the only Religious Animal. He is the only animal that has the True Religion -- several of them. He is the only animal that loves his neighbor as himself and cuts his throat if his theology isn't straight. He has made a graveyard of the globe in trying his honest best to smooth his brother's path to happiness and heaven....The higher animals have no religion. And we are told that they are going to be left out in the Hereafter. I wonder why? It seems questionable taste.
- The Lowest Animal essay, 1897

We despise all reverences and all the objects of reverence which are outside the pale of our own list of sacred things. And yet, with strange inconsistency, we are shocked when other people despise and defile the things which are holy to us.
- Following the Equator

Suppose you were an idiot. Suppose you were a member of Congress. But I repeat myself. - Suppose you were an idiot. Suppose you were a member of Congress. But I repeat myself. - Mark Twain

If you have 3 quarters, 4 dimes, and 4 pennies, you have $1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being able to make change for a dollar.
The numbers '172' can be found on the back of the U.S. $5 dollar bill in the bushes at the base of the Lincoln Memorial.

President Kennedy was the fastest random speaker in the world with upwards of 350 words per minute.

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A galactic year is 250 million Earth-years. This is the time it takes for our solar system to make one revolution around the Milky Way Galaxy

A jiffy is an actual unit of time for 1/100th of a second. Thus the saying, I will be there in a jiffy.

The Saguaro Cactus, found in South-western United States does not grow branches until it is 75 years old.

During World War II, condoms were used to cover rifle barrels from being damaged by salt water as the soldiers swam to shore

The condom made originally of linen was invented in the early 1500's. Casanova, the womanizer, used linen condoms.

Studies have shown that the scent of Rosemary can help in better mental performance and make individuals feel more alert

A fetus develops fingerprints at eighteen weeks

Celtic warriors sometimes fought their battles naked, their bodies dyed blue from head to toe.

After the U.S Civil War, about 33%-50% of all U.S. paper currency in circulation was counterfeit

In 1281, the Mongol army of Kublai Khan tried to invade Japan but were ravaged by a hurricane that destroyed their fleet.

In 1685, New France used playing cards as currency because of the shortage of coins.

In 1836, Mexican General Santa Anna held an elaborate state funeral for his amputated leg.

In 1865, the U.S. Secret Service was first established for the specific purpose to combat the counterfeiting of money.

In 410 A.D. Alaric the Visigoth demanded that Rome give him three thousand pounds of pepper as ransom.

In the 1550's, the Earl of Oxford, Edward de Vere, embarrassingly left to travel for seven years because he had accidently farted when he had bowed down to Queen Elizabeth I. When he returned the Queen said to him, "My Lord, I had forgot the fart."

In the Victoria era, red tulips were a declaration of love.

Peter the Great executed his wife's lover, and forced her to keep her lover's head in a jar of alcohol in her bedroom.

Pilgrims did not eat potatoes for Thanksgiving as they thought they were poisonous.

St. Patrick never really drove out any snakes from Ireland. This story was an analogy of how he drove paganism out of Ireland

The Mongol emperor Genghis Khan's original name was Temujin

The first state to give the right to women to vote was Wyoming.

The first subway system in America was built in Boston, Massachusetts in 1897.

The oldest working Post Office in the world is located in the village of Sanquer, located in the Scottish Lowlands. It has been operating since 1712.

Vikings, after killing their enemies, used their skulls as drinking vessels

When Black Jack Ketchum was hung back in 1901 in Clayton New Mexico, the noose actually ended up taking his head off. The head had to be sewn back on so Black Jack could be buried properly.

Airports that are at higher altitudes require a longer airstrip due to lower air density

Every U.S. bill regardless of denomination costs just 4 cents to make.

In Italy, Santa Claus is known by the name Babbo Natale

India has the most post offices in the world

One gallon of used motor oil can ruin approximately one million gallons of fresh water.

In the movie "The Matrix Reloaded" a 17 minute battle scene cost over $40 million to produce

The first restaurant to open in Hollywood was the Musso & Frank Grill in 1919

During his entire life, Vincent Van Gogh sold exactly one painting, Red Vineyard at Arles

The mythical Scottish town of Brigadoon appears for one day every one hundred years

Fido means faithful in Latin.

Mona Lisa has no eyebrows in Leonardo da Vinci's painting. During that time, a woman was considered more beautiful if she shaved her eyebrows.

The expression "Tying the Knot" comes from an old Roman custom where the brides clothes were tied up all in knots and the groom was supposed to untie the knots.

The term "mayday" used for signaling for help (after SOS) comes from the French "M'aidez" which is pronounced "MAYDAY" and means, "Help Me."

The word "Nazi" is actually an abbreviation for Nationalsozialistische Deutsche Arbeiterpartei, which refers to the National Socialist German Workers Party.

Albert Einstein was offered the presidency of Israel in 1952, but he declined.

Sawney Beane, his wife, 8 sons, 6 daughters, and 32 grandchildren were a family of cannibals that lived in the caves near Galloway, Scotland in the early 17th Century. Although the total number is not known, it is believed they claimed over 50 victims per year. The entire family was taken by an army detachment to Edinburgh and executed, apparently without trial.

A famous bullfighter, Lagarijo, killed 4,867 bulls in the 19th century.

Emilio Marco Palma was the first person born in Antarctica in 1978.

cemeteries to ease the overflow of dead people. They took these bones and stacked them in tunnels now known as the Catacombs. You can visit these tunnel attractions and work your way along long corridors, which are stacked with skulls and bones.

top 110 banned books (of all time)
bold the ones youve read, italicize the ones youve read part of, underline the ones you specifically want to read.

#1 The Bible
#2 Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
#3 Don Quixote by Miguel de Cervantes
#4 The Koran
#5 Arabian Nights
#6 Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain
#7 Gulliver's Travels by Jonathan Swift
#8 Canterbury Tales by Geoffrey Chaucer
#9 Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
#10 Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman
#11 The Prince by Niccolo Machiavelli
#12 Uncle Tom's Cabin by Harriet Beecher Stowe
#13 Diary of a Young Girl by Anne Frank
#14 Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert
#15 Oliver Twist by Charles Dickens
#16 Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
#17 Dracula by Bram Stoker
#18 Autobiography by Benjamin Franklin
#19 Tom Jones by Henry Fielding
#20 Essays by Michel de Montaigne
#21 Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
#22 History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire by Edward Gibbon
#23 Tess of the D'Urbervilles by Thomas Hardy
#24 Origin of Species by Charles Darwin
#25 Ulysses by James Joyce
#26 Decameron by Giovanni Boccaccio
#27 Animal Farm by George Orwell
#28 Nineteen Eighty-Four by George Orwell
#29 Candide by Voltaire
#30 To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
#31 Analects by Confucius
#32 Dubliners by James Joyce
#33 Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
#34 Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway
#35 Red and the Black by Stendhal
#36 Das Capital by Karl Marx
#37 Flowers of Evil by Charles Baudelaire
#38 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
#39 Lady Chatterley's Lover by D. H. Lawrence
#40 Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
#41 Sister Carrie by Theodore Dreiser
#42 Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell
#43 Jungle by Upton Sinclair
#44 All Quiet on the Western Front by Erich Maria Remarque
#45 Communist Manifesto by Karl Marx
#46 Lord of the Flies by William Golding
#47 Diary by Samuel Pepys
#48 Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
#49 Jude the Obscure by Thomas Hardy
#50 Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury
#51 Doctor Zhivago by Boris Pasternak
#52 Critique of Pure Reason by Immanuel Kant
#53 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey
#54 Praise of Folly by Desiderius Erasmus
#55 Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
#56 Autobiography of Malcolm X by Malcolm X
#57 Color Purple by Alice Walker
#59 Essay Concerning Human Understanding by John Locke
#60 Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison
#61 Moll Flanders by Daniel Defoe
#62 One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich by Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn
#63 East of Eden by John Steinbeck
#64 Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison
#65 I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou
#66 Confessions by Jean Jacques Rousseau
#67 Gargantua and Pantagruel by Francois Rabelais
#68 Leviathan by Thomas Hobbes
#69 The Talmud
#70 Social Contract by Jean Jacques Rousseau
#71 Bridge to Tarabithia by Katherine Paterson
#72 Women in Love by D. H. Lawrence
#73 American Tragedy by Theodore Dreiser
#74 Mein Kampf by Adolf Hitler
#75 Separate Peace by John Knowles
#76 Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
#77 Red Pony by John Steinbeck
#78 Popol Vuh
#79 Affluent Society by John Kenneth Galbraith
#80 Satyricon by Petronius
#81 James and the Giant Peach by Roald Dahl
#82 Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
#83 Black Boy by Richard Wright
#84 Spirit of the Laws by Charles de Secondat Baron de Montesquieu
#85 Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut
#86 Julie of the Wolves by Jean Craighead George
#87 Metaphysics by Aristotle
#88 Little House on the Prairie by Laura Ingalls Wilder
#89 Institutes of the Christian Religion by Jean Calvin
#90 Steppenwolf by Hermann Hesse
#91 Power and the Glory by Graham Greene
#92 Sanctuary by William Faulkner
#93 As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
#94 Black Like Me by John Howard Griffin
#95 Sylvester and the Magic Pebble by William Steig
#96 Sorrows of Young Werther by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
#97 General Introduction to Psychoanalysis by Sigmund Freud
#98 Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood
#99 Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee by Dee Alexander Brown
#100 Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
#101 Autobiography of Miss Jane Pittman by Ernest J. Gaines
#102 Emile Jean by Jacques Rousseau
#103 Nana by Emile Zola
#104 Chocolate War by Robert Cormier
#105 Go Tell It on the Mountain by James Baldwin
#106 Gulag Archipelago by Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn
#107 Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert A. Heinlein fuck yeah!
#108 Day No Pigs Would Die by Robert Peck
#109 Ox-Bow Incident by Walter Van Tilburg Clark
#110 Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes

que amore, que puto amor tuve!@~&*
que nunca vuelva ella, ni el mismo amor
que nunca sea igual
y que olvide todo para siempre

que siempre conozca yo mi valor
que no esperes lo igual ni lo mejor
que siempre veas las cosas como son
y que algun dia perdones y nunca recuerdes

que algun dia veas cosas mejor
que la grieta que tienes en tu corazon sane
que la sicatriz no duela, ni queme, ni te recuerde
que algun dia veas hoy muy lejano y en el olvido
que dios me perdone, me ayude, y me sane
hoy y siempre